this blog is back

about some time ago, i had deleted my old blog and the reasons were that i had outgrown it, that it was nothing more than an egotistical representation of my online self. yes, i still hold to that view, but as a result, this blog will have as little links as possible and only those that i trust will have access to this blog, my mind, possibly my soul.

the reason for its demise was that it was egotistical.

the reason why it has revived is because i have a gut feeling that i am about to go through an intensely difficult period of my life.

we all know how its like when its 18. with the world supposedly at your feet, with the world waiting for your entrance....

this has come with a few new issues, and more than a few challenges and i can only hope that somehow, by writing it out here, that i wil somehow comprehend the truth of the matter, not to make a decision of myself, but to maybe see a little more clearly where i am headed.

why not write in a diary? hell, i hate writing and my handwriting sucks. i do enough essays in school already. typing is faster and thus i can keep my own stream of consciousness when i type. dont believe it? why the hell am i explaining myself to you anyway?

so here goes...right back into the rabbit hole of my own mind, here we go, down the hole.