isnt it ironic
how people say one thing and do another?
how man seeks to dominate other people, whether consciously or unconsciously?
a few things make me pissed off. inequality (even though i agree it must exist) is one of them. and so is unequal treatment.
take this example:
a warrant asks me to come back at 430 pm to get a vehicle. i set my alarm for 425 so i have time to get there. i do section drills with my sectionmates under guidance of an officer.
at 425 i tell the officer i have to go and acquire the vehicle for practise tomorrow and that i need one more guy to come with me. he tells me to get someone from the other section (who has already finished the drills) to go with me. i need the guy cos we arent allowed to drive around the compound without a ground guide.
i go to the other section and they are having some competition or something that will not affect their knowledge of the drills. just playing time for them. so i ask one of them to help me and they tell me they cant do it. they say go a little later, wait till we're done.
the time now is around 445. im 15 minutes late cos i cant get a guy to come with me. i go back to the officer and i tell him i need someone fast. he tells me to call the other sections who happen to be having lessons somewhere else. they arent free. nobody can come, so it seems. and this vehicle happens to be a key vehicle used for tomorrow's exercise.
i get pissed and start swearing (under my breath) and i flash a finger to the other section. finally, im able to get one of my guys to come with me.
this incident might seem pretty small if not for a few things that some ppl said.
"aiyah dont worry la, lieutenant higher rank than warrant. just say sir needs you to do section drills"
and also
"er...a bit late nevermind right" (my officer)
ladies and gentlemen, we were half an hour late when i finally got there. half an hour in military terms is amount to suicide.
my question to them is... if someone is of lower rank, does he deserve the same amount of respect as someone who is supposedly "higher up"?
and if officers are so concerned about timings and they fuck everyone around them when timings are not met (even for a minute or so), then why are they not adhering to a simple timing themselves?
the situation is always like this. people higher up are not aware of the shit that percolates down. and if they are aware of it then they should go to hell because they arent doing anything about it.
i realise its damn easy to just slack off when youre at the top but then if you are going to slack off then please dont feed me bullshit about pride and honour and glory and working for your men when you yourself are looking pretty in the mirror when other people are sweating out there in the hot sun and getting screwed.
most of the time, i get the feeling that people in charge dont really know what is going on. at all. i dont want to name names, but the simple fact is that i was assigned 3 different positions and responsibilities and they all changed within a few minutes of each other with other people taking over me. he was simply calling names and people to meet supply and demand without taking into note the bigger picture. (sounds complex but its really very simple. he cant fucking make up his mind as to what he wants to do)
fucking people is a distraction. it is supposed to make up for lack of ability and ignorance. in terms of man management, the army is probably the worst place to go if you want things to get done effectively.
how does saying "fuck you understand" to a person in push up position make up for efficiency, lost time and work done?
also, there seems to be a need to act big in front of so called "men". corporals or sergeants or warrants.
there were other guys with us there at the training site undergoing the same training as us. corporals and sergeants. attached to us.
our in charge had a field day. talking macho big words. cussing, swearing, exuding so much testosterone that if you looked closely, he appeared to be gently steaming.
in front of them, he gestured towards them with an open palm;
"guys, you know who these people are?"
"these people are men"
he might as well have called them chickens, or beef steak.
"they are watching you, so if you fuck around, theyre gonna laugh at you"
at this point of time, a few of them rolled their eyes.
i didnt know where the hell to cover my face. i cant believe that im part of this bullshit.
and then later some other even higher up person comes along and he tells us that we are a "special breed of men" with "IQs of above 100" and "the top 10% of the top 10% from dunno where and when"
who gives a shit when i dont think anybody will be fighting for the top 10% of the top 10% anytime soon with that kinda attitude.
the best part is that some of them actually believe it. they actually buy into it. that they really are that great. fuck you, understand.
just because you want to chiong. doesnt mean that others want to as well. people think that just because they want to do this, others will wanna do it as well. it becomes dangerous and irritating when you have others under you and you think you are god's gift to mankind.
sigh. i can go on and on and on. so many examples.
the ironic thing is that he told me that i could make a difference. i could Not be what i hated. i could make things better for others.
only time will tell.
how man seeks to dominate other people, whether consciously or unconsciously?
a few things make me pissed off. inequality (even though i agree it must exist) is one of them. and so is unequal treatment.
take this example:
a warrant asks me to come back at 430 pm to get a vehicle. i set my alarm for 425 so i have time to get there. i do section drills with my sectionmates under guidance of an officer.
at 425 i tell the officer i have to go and acquire the vehicle for practise tomorrow and that i need one more guy to come with me. he tells me to get someone from the other section (who has already finished the drills) to go with me. i need the guy cos we arent allowed to drive around the compound without a ground guide.
i go to the other section and they are having some competition or something that will not affect their knowledge of the drills. just playing time for them. so i ask one of them to help me and they tell me they cant do it. they say go a little later, wait till we're done.
the time now is around 445. im 15 minutes late cos i cant get a guy to come with me. i go back to the officer and i tell him i need someone fast. he tells me to call the other sections who happen to be having lessons somewhere else. they arent free. nobody can come, so it seems. and this vehicle happens to be a key vehicle used for tomorrow's exercise.
i get pissed and start swearing (under my breath) and i flash a finger to the other section. finally, im able to get one of my guys to come with me.
this incident might seem pretty small if not for a few things that some ppl said.
"aiyah dont worry la, lieutenant higher rank than warrant. just say sir needs you to do section drills"
and also
"er...a bit late nevermind right" (my officer)
ladies and gentlemen, we were half an hour late when i finally got there. half an hour in military terms is amount to suicide.
my question to them is... if someone is of lower rank, does he deserve the same amount of respect as someone who is supposedly "higher up"?
and if officers are so concerned about timings and they fuck everyone around them when timings are not met (even for a minute or so), then why are they not adhering to a simple timing themselves?
the situation is always like this. people higher up are not aware of the shit that percolates down. and if they are aware of it then they should go to hell because they arent doing anything about it.
i realise its damn easy to just slack off when youre at the top but then if you are going to slack off then please dont feed me bullshit about pride and honour and glory and working for your men when you yourself are looking pretty in the mirror when other people are sweating out there in the hot sun and getting screwed.
most of the time, i get the feeling that people in charge dont really know what is going on. at all. i dont want to name names, but the simple fact is that i was assigned 3 different positions and responsibilities and they all changed within a few minutes of each other with other people taking over me. he was simply calling names and people to meet supply and demand without taking into note the bigger picture. (sounds complex but its really very simple. he cant fucking make up his mind as to what he wants to do)
fucking people is a distraction. it is supposed to make up for lack of ability and ignorance. in terms of man management, the army is probably the worst place to go if you want things to get done effectively.
how does saying "fuck you understand" to a person in push up position make up for efficiency, lost time and work done?
also, there seems to be a need to act big in front of so called "men". corporals or sergeants or warrants.
there were other guys with us there at the training site undergoing the same training as us. corporals and sergeants. attached to us.
our in charge had a field day. talking macho big words. cussing, swearing, exuding so much testosterone that if you looked closely, he appeared to be gently steaming.
in front of them, he gestured towards them with an open palm;
"guys, you know who these people are?"
"these people are men"
he might as well have called them chickens, or beef steak.
"they are watching you, so if you fuck around, theyre gonna laugh at you"
at this point of time, a few of them rolled their eyes.
i didnt know where the hell to cover my face. i cant believe that im part of this bullshit.
and then later some other even higher up person comes along and he tells us that we are a "special breed of men" with "IQs of above 100" and "the top 10% of the top 10% from dunno where and when"
who gives a shit when i dont think anybody will be fighting for the top 10% of the top 10% anytime soon with that kinda attitude.
the best part is that some of them actually believe it. they actually buy into it. that they really are that great. fuck you, understand.
just because you want to chiong. doesnt mean that others want to as well. people think that just because they want to do this, others will wanna do it as well. it becomes dangerous and irritating when you have others under you and you think you are god's gift to mankind.
sigh. i can go on and on and on. so many examples.
the ironic thing is that he told me that i could make a difference. i could Not be what i hated. i could make things better for others.
only time will tell.
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