random thoughts
army half marathon today , after a whole week of shit and morale sucking activity.
sometimes i think that they train your mind here and not your body. physically its not that tough, like infantry but mentally you feel very trapped and claustrophobic. like it never ends. it never ends.
but we're almost used to it. if you dont think so much it goes away, for a while.
we used to live week by week, then day by day and now its mealtime by mealtime. when will this ever end?
just today i was talking to Jason and Nonis. met them ol buddies at the half marathon. Foxtrot platoon 2. times have changed but the people are the same. Jason is in running for the sword of honour, but i wonder who is going to save him from himself sometimes haha. he exudes this air of earnestness and yet at the same time he is also very...vulnerable. ive never known anyone with as much heart as jason. his heart rules him. and thank god it does because its so refreshing to talk to such people.
i wish you all the very best guys. i really hope to see you all on the parade square. we'd smile and laugh and grab each other and the moment will never ever ever end. not in our minds and not in our memories. and for this chance of making that happen we must perservere onwards.
after i told him about our training, jason exclaimed that he was darn glad that he is not in armour haha., he also got pissed cos "infantry is so pussy! we must do something about it!"
sigh, the male ego never fails to astound me. but still, competition is good for the soul. and theyd never beat us in terms of eating shit.
it was really great meeting up with you guys again.
as usual had the usual chit chat with jo and jianwei at TCC. i think we;ve made the place our unofficial meeting ground and chill out place. the drinks and food are just so good there haha.
were on a quest to discover singapore again. we've had many lobangs but just no time to fulfill all of them. thats why i must get commissioned soon so i can have more free time (and rights)
its strange how you know some people are lifelong friends because you can just sit down and talk about anything and everything.
its also scary how you can also do something wrong or have a change in heart, attitudes and values and then go your seperate ways. i hope that doesnt happen. life changes too much sometimes for its own good and even though i acknowledge that change is good for the soul and mind, too much of it is just so draining at times.
sometimes i feel 23 and sometimes i feel 17. im 19 and im not quite sure where its going, as usual.
maybe we all dont know where were going, just that some people are better at pretending that they know where theyre going. maybe i should ask my mom if she knows, although i know shell tell me she knows shes going to heaven.
one more week, back to camp. life goes on...it has to end someday.
sometimes i think that they train your mind here and not your body. physically its not that tough, like infantry but mentally you feel very trapped and claustrophobic. like it never ends. it never ends.
but we're almost used to it. if you dont think so much it goes away, for a while.
we used to live week by week, then day by day and now its mealtime by mealtime. when will this ever end?
just today i was talking to Jason and Nonis. met them ol buddies at the half marathon. Foxtrot platoon 2. times have changed but the people are the same. Jason is in running for the sword of honour, but i wonder who is going to save him from himself sometimes haha. he exudes this air of earnestness and yet at the same time he is also very...vulnerable. ive never known anyone with as much heart as jason. his heart rules him. and thank god it does because its so refreshing to talk to such people.
i wish you all the very best guys. i really hope to see you all on the parade square. we'd smile and laugh and grab each other and the moment will never ever ever end. not in our minds and not in our memories. and for this chance of making that happen we must perservere onwards.
after i told him about our training, jason exclaimed that he was darn glad that he is not in armour haha., he also got pissed cos "infantry is so pussy! we must do something about it!"
sigh, the male ego never fails to astound me. but still, competition is good for the soul. and theyd never beat us in terms of eating shit.
it was really great meeting up with you guys again.
as usual had the usual chit chat with jo and jianwei at TCC. i think we;ve made the place our unofficial meeting ground and chill out place. the drinks and food are just so good there haha.
were on a quest to discover singapore again. we've had many lobangs but just no time to fulfill all of them. thats why i must get commissioned soon so i can have more free time (and rights)
its strange how you know some people are lifelong friends because you can just sit down and talk about anything and everything.
its also scary how you can also do something wrong or have a change in heart, attitudes and values and then go your seperate ways. i hope that doesnt happen. life changes too much sometimes for its own good and even though i acknowledge that change is good for the soul and mind, too much of it is just so draining at times.
sometimes i feel 23 and sometimes i feel 17. im 19 and im not quite sure where its going, as usual.
maybe we all dont know where were going, just that some people are better at pretending that they know where theyre going. maybe i should ask my mom if she knows, although i know shell tell me she knows shes going to heaven.
one more week, back to camp. life goes on...it has to end someday.
posted by tim tay at 7:58 PM
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